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No more drawings. Ever.

Wed Jun 4, 2008, 7:30 AM
It's been about two months since I've said anything, so I might as well post something because I can't sleep. I've quit drawing again. I'm not going to pick up my pencil for a very long time. I made a deal with my boyfriend that I'm not going to draw again until he gets another job. I don't think I will even when he *does*. I don't want to. My drawings fucking suck!

The only thing you'll probably ever see from me again are some photos. I bought a Polaroid camera and a ton of film. I still have access to a darkroom, so I might think about printing some more stuff. I honestly don't know. These days I don't want to focus on art.

My true passion is with Japanese.

If you wanna keep supporting me, you're welcome to. I'm not saying that as if I'm expecting you guys to try and lift me up and carry my sorry ass around. It's just nice to hear that someone likes your shit, you know?

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~frankthewritingtank:iconfrankthewritingtank: Jun 4, 2008, 8:35:04 AM
noooooo dont stop drawing! i thought your drawings were amazing and made me want to learn to draw! screw if your bf wants to be a bum!

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There's a hole in the world like a great black pit/ and it's filled with people who are filled with shit/ and the vermin of the world inhabit it- but not for long! They all deserve to die!
~Spork-Bunny:iconSpork-Bunny: Jun 4, 2008, 8:45:16 AM
It saddens me to hear that you don't want to draw anymore, but honestly if you don't want to then you shouldn't HAVE to.
But I'm glad you have a passion so I wish you luck with your Japanese :)
I'm also glad you're still doing photography, I think you have a real talent for it.
Good Luck!
*Cloxboy:iconCloxboy: Jun 4, 2008, 9:11:49 AM
I so wanna lift you up and carry your sorry ass around. How about it everyone? Let's do it! She needs our support, let's overdue it! :)

You got my support S!

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~HaiyakuCK:iconHaiyakuCK: Jun 4, 2008, 9:15:40 AM
Aww... I don't know if I have what it takes to draw any more. Thank you for your support Clox.

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The despised, the hated.
The desired, uncreated.
The disturbed, the loved.
The deadly, unrelated.
~HaiyakuCK:iconHaiyakuCK: Jun 4, 2008, 9:18:32 AM
Thank you Franny. Photography and Japanese are just about the only two hobbies that don't stress me out. Sometimes I'll get upset when I can't get a photo right, but that's what Photoshop is here for.

I still remember drawing with you in your house and gawking at your Copics. Maybe some day (hopefully) I'll learn to deal with my stress better and I'll suddenly feel like drawing. Until then, I feel this is the best way for me to focus my energy. :hug:

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The despised, the hated.
The desired, uncreated.
The disturbed, the loved.
The deadly, unrelated.
~HaiyakuCK:iconHaiyakuCK: Jun 4, 2008, 9:36:52 AM
I never knew I was an inspiration to anyone. Thank you for telling me that. The main reason I'm quitting is because of how stressful this hobby can become for me. I'm terrible at dealing with stress!

I guess I kinda made my boyfriend sound bad. He has an interview today to get a graveyard shift at UVA. It'll be his second job. ^^; If I didn't think there was a chance he'd get off his butt to find work, I probably wouldn't even be with him.

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The despised, the hated.
The desired, uncreated.
The disturbed, the loved.
The deadly, unrelated.
~Spork-Bunny:iconSpork-Bunny: Jun 4, 2008, 10:12:05 AM
I also have fond memories of drawing with you ^_^ But I'm glad you know what makes you happy and stress-free. :hug:
~parchmentheron:iconparchmentheron: Jun 7, 2008, 9:27:44 PM
;-; B-but.. I love your art. It makes me happy and inspires me to draw my own stuff.

Please don't stop because your boyfriend. Being yourself and expressing your creativity is more important.

Your drawings don't fucking suck. :\ They sucking FUCK! :D

... er. Well, that didn't come out the way I wanted it to. If you don't draw ever again, I'll be sad and cry, okay?

We <3 you.

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Those who would sacrifice freedom for safety deserve neither.
~HaiyakuCK:iconHaiyakuCK: Jun 8, 2008, 2:50:20 PM
I more or less made that deal with my boyfriend because I know he's trying to get a second job, and I wanted to give him some sort of incentive as well as give myself a break from art. Drawing really stresses me out. Until I can handle my stress, I don't know if it's a good idea to keep pushing myself to put the pencil on the paper. Photography is a different story... I know it isn't the same as drawing though...

Give me some time to regather myself. I'm not going to stop forever and ever. Stress management has always been a weak point for me!

Haha, is that a spoonerism? Sucking fuck. :P

--
The despised, the hated.
The desired, uncreated.
The disturbed, the loved.
The deadly, unrelated.
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